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Things: 1. never use deviantart anymore. i just wrote like 5 poems and they all suck. it's the first i've written in ages. i wrote some about 1 year ago when i was crushin on someone pretty hard. but that's it. 2. and that's because i'm so so busy. grad school yo. philosophy MA! it's hard, and soul-crushing and horrible--which no one will tell you. maybe it's better if you're in an unranked program, but when it top 3 (yeah, wow wtf how did i get into one of those), life is just gonna blow for 2 years. 3. i should draw more...but as with poetry, i have so little time to feel.

Sigh, school is back. Has been back for about a month? Instead of working on current homework, I'm working on future homework. Maybe it will cancel out? I just find my final political philosophy paper to be more interesting than reading the current assignment in the class. I'm trying to find a second job so I can move the fuck out. Which isn't likely. The music school doesn't need any more teachers...and I think I need a degree to get this other job I'm looking at. Lucky me...the boy is letting me stay over almost every single night. Everything is actually extremely normal, except for my level of procrastination (which is off the charts) s

whyeeeeeee can't I finish a freakin book this summer? JUST ONE would be nice. I started "Notes From Underground," "Spanking the Donkey," "The Heart Is A Lonely Hunter," and none would stick. It's not like they aren't good...it's just. I'm so bleh. I feel tired and restless at the same time. Other things: 1. I'm officially into camera repair. As in I have all these solvents and lubricants and need to open up my minolta now. I'm scared/excited. Don't want to ruin anything. 2. I'm in the honors program. That was easy. Extreeeemely cool part of this: I can take grad classes my senior year! =D Specificity is my bitch. 3. Bill laid down bass an